-lonely & lonely-

寂寞不是身边没人在，而是身边很多人，却没人为你停留。

自己一的人的感觉，是孤单。

又寂寞又孤单，应该是可悲了吧。

I miss the washing machine. T^T

so some smartbackside took the washing room's key and didn't put it back, which resulted in me having to hand wash my whole week punya baju.

I no like you! I no like my hand getting soaked in soap. gah! later hand not smoothhhhhhh. whyyyyyyyyyy.

I need washing machine. gah!

Finally sien with driving.

So fed up of driving around. So tiring. Shall drive less =)

McD-ing

At McD Kepong with miss K where she broke the chair and where I still haven't finish doing the darn door. gah gah gah!

DIE LOR>..<

I suddenly miss Finance =.=

Interior Design is harder than I thought it would be. gah! endless homework. celaka. bzzz bzzz bzzz.

THEN WHY NO MORE SMURRFFFFFF???? I wanted happy meal ge lor, they come with smurf ><

Changes.

What are you afraid of?

Don't know bout you, but if there's one thing that I am afraid of, and have yet to conquer, it must be change.

Often in life, I know I need to change, but I am to afraid to. To many what ifs, and maybes.

"What if, the change turns out to be worse?"

"Maybe it is better to stay where I am."

"What will people think?"

But now, I know, I HAVE to change. For the better or the worse. No change is definitely the paling horrible wan.

As they've always said, plan A don't work? Switch to plan B loh~ And therefore, I is switching to plan B. That is, to work hard.

.. okay la, I try okay? =)

Tanah yang aku takkan tumpah darahku.

As Malaysia likes to publicize itself, it is a multi-racial country, bla bla bla, they say it like we are the perfect country, when in fact, everybody is just tolerating one another. But hey, I'm not saying that other countries are better or what... but that is their story la, none of my business. As a Malaysian citizen, this is what I've observed. *disclaimer: I am not being racist.*

Our country practices cultural assimilation in response to demographic multi-ethnicity. Meaning that, you add race A,B,C and D, but A would be the official one/ main. If you are Malaysian, I think you get it.

And people have long have a problem with that. Especially the Chinese and Indians. They say, it's not fair to favor one particular group just cause they came and steal the land and claim that they are the bumiputeras. I won't deny being part of these people. See, I so honest =D

However, I've come to the realisation that it all boils down to one word: GREED.

They want more for themselves, so they point fingers at the bumiputeras and shout IT AIN'T FAIR!!!

You know, I used to think that if the PM were to be a Chinese or even Indian, our country would have been so much better. *ahemsingaporeahem*

But IF, I'm saying IF, the PM is really Chinese/ Indian, can we still live this peacefully or tolerating-ly?

As a Chinese, I know that we Chinese are very selfish, so if the PM is a Chinese, I'm quite sure that all the new laws passed would only favor the Chinese, and it would be a very Chinese-biased country. Maybe far worse than our current state. Then, wouldn't it create even worse racial problems?

And then the politics scene would be even more like monkey business? No? Cause even now, the politicians like to "racial-ise" everything already.

And what if, what if, we become like China, where even the meat is made of banboo? I no wan lor..

So yes, for the first time ever, I'm telling you, I like Malaysia just the way it is, despite it's flaws. *Bruno Mars's Just the way you are pops into mind =.=*

P for Procrastination.

Being me, I procrastinate alot, so much so that it affects my homework and productivity. Heck, because I procrastinate so much, I did badly during exams. But then, again, being me, I never learn. =____=

Now, being almost an adult, I find this very bad habit of mine, very hard to change, but I want to change it, and YES I CAN! and therefore, I SHALL!

Off to drawing it is~!